My weekend -

Pride - I didn't make the Gay Pride Parade this year. Too bad really, I always laugh and have a great time. Shane and I did make it to a gay club. We met up with Jabon, Wendy, and their dates. I really have to say that I always have more fun in gay clubs than I do in straight ones. There is no stress or worry. I can look like total crap and it really doesn't matter. The music is better. The atmosphere is better. It's really just a much better way to go.

Cirque - Frenchie took me to the Cirque Du Soleil showing on Corteo. We always go to the Cirque shows when ever they are in town. Always great. Corteo was the first one that I had seen with English. That was new for me. This was my favorite of all the traveling shows. The little person known as Valentina would be the reason for that. I LOVED HER!!! Go see it if you get a chance.

Chalk - After the show Frenchie and I went to see the street chalk drawings in Larimer Square. Totally cool. Those people spend two full days completing something that will wash away. Some of them are really something to behold. I made Frenchie take some pics with his phone. I want to get them on here so that you can see.

Total Randomness -

My arms, chest, knees, and nose have had this not-quite-rash-thing for days now. Strange.



Shane, Frenchie, and I had dinner at the Aquarium last night. It's silly, but totally fun. I have named the big shark Fifi and the giant tattoo fish is Bruno. Shane and I went a couple of weeks ago. We had such a great time that we totally plan on doing it all the time. PS - We had originally thought that Fifi was actually giving birth to a new baby shark. Turns out that Fifi is a boy shark with a GIANT schlong. No baby. All schlong.



My new shampoo smells like pez, you know, the candy. So I dig the smell but I don't like the results.



Our A/C is not working correctly in my office. I stole a fan from the night people, but my ass still sweats into my chair.



I've lost enough weight (20lbs) that I can shop at Ann Taylor again. That makes me very happy, but my bank account very sad.



Concern is growing over my receding gums. Will the just keep going?

That is why I blog -

So I feel much better than I did yesterday. I'm sure that the reason for that was my outburst here on MY blog. I'm so very thankful that I have my own place to get angry, but most of all be honest about my feelings at the moment. I prefer being a crazy bitch here than being a crazy bitch in real life. I am yet again having a hard time with this wait. My preference is not not talk about it to anyone and everyone, but lately I have not had that option. No matter how politely you try to divert away from it there are people that will not leave it alone. It offends me that there are people out there that really believe that they are "in" this with us. They will then tell me how they are coping with our adoption wait. It invalidates my own feelings and make me angry. It's Frenchie and I, that's it. We certainly have many loving and supporting people around us, but it's really just me and the big guy. It's our empty home and hearts.

I keep forgetting to write about my NEW FRIEND so I'll do that now. Her name is Yen and she is Chinese. Even better than that she is Michael and Kacey's mom. I LOVE her, really I do. She is so open and cool. I was thrilled when she said she would be happy to look over our referral stuff when that time comes. She is very excited about us adopting from China. It really means a lot to me that I have this bond with her.

My vent -

I didn't have too much to say about our one year anniversary on Friday. Today I'm not having that problem. I'm pissed and I need to vent.

I really don't want to hear any whining on "our" behalf. The truth of the matter is that it is NOT you going through it. I don't want to hear how YOU are being patient. In fact I don't want to hear anything. IT"S NOT ABOUT YOU!!! I don't care about what you are not understanding. Let's face it, you'll know if I wanted to talk about the adoption. If I don't mention it for months then I probably don't want to discuss it. I have been bombarded with questions and other's feeling. If you honestly can't think of anything else to say then for the love of god don't say anything. We will not be parents soon. Please stop! Just stop!

One Year

I've had some health issues this week so I haven't really cared about blogging. I did want to take just a moment to recognize that it has officially been one year today that we have been logged into China. No emotions today (yet). I'm hoping that my lovely husband and I can do something to acknowledge it. Maybe we can start something new as well.

Have a great weekend and I promise to try and blog more next week. I know that I have been a total slacker.

Love ya,
Moll

The Circle -

The Birth -
Tim and Little Miss Russia welcomed baby girl Anna into the world on 5/25/07. I talked to everyone over the phone that night and was so happy for them. That was pretty short lived since I woke up sobbing and feeling sorry for myself. I hate it that I'm really this selfish.
The Death -
My Poppa passed away on 5/30/07. As much as I felt sorry for myself about the baby, it didn't even compare. I feel like I have lost more than my lovely grandfather. I feel like I lost a family or that part of myself.
The Union -
My mini-me Shayna married high school sweet heart Chris on 6/9/07. Really all I can think of was how beautiful my little friend was. The tom-boy turned hottie in a big way. No joke on the mini-me part. I stuck out my tongue while walking down the isle to a friend. I had to do something to break the tension I was feeling in my toes. Well, Shayna did the same thing and even her reason was the same.

So my vacation was truly a life lesson I guess. I'm not trying to be negative nelly, but damn I have had better vacations.

Oh, I did get to finally meet my niece Isabelle. She's built like her Auntie M, a chub. So cute. So sweet. So endeared to me.

I guess that referrals came out while I was out. They only went to 11/7/05. I figure that it's way better than the last, but it's still way bad. At that pace we'd get our referral in like 32 months from now. So yeah, really not good news.

I'm not sure if I had mentioned yet or not that my office will be closing down no later than March of next year. I have been offered the ability to work from home. Don't worry, I don't hate myself that much. I'll take the package and try something else. I'd like to go back to school or start something completely new.