Asian Girl Stalker....

This weekend was pretty nice. Ang and I hung a bit on her birthday on Saturday. Went to the mall and wandered around. The mall is a bad place for me. Not just because I spend more money than I have. The mall is the best place for me to see young Asian girls. Naturally, I stalk them. It's not that I get too creepy or anything, I just want to look that's all. I'll do it for as long as it takes for me to be noticed as a stalker. I don't want to freak out parents or anything, I just want to imagine that is what Sophia will look like. I'm totally not the only one that does this. I read blogs all the time that talk about the same thing. In fact, my own SW said that she used to do the same thing. It really did make me feel less dirty about my Asian girl stalking habits. My friends know that I do it and don't seem to mind yet. Shane says that he is know stalking these girls for me as well. I love it that my best friends are becoming so vested in this adoption. I can't tell you how good it feels to have that support. There are so many people out there that do not have the support that I do. Sure, I still get tons of offensive remarks from those near and dear from time to time, but I don't get too bent yet. It's something that I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life.

Every trip to the mall also means a trip to Pottery Barn Kids. I have to go in every single time. I will drag who ever I am with in there with no regard to how they feel about it. Hey, at least I'm honest. I have never bought anything from there, but I sure do have a list. I have a PBK catalogue at home that I look at 12 times a day. There is just the most perfect quilt in there that I have to have. The colors send a tingle down my spine and I imagine her room all finished. It gives me some peace for a little bit. I guess that I must look like an insane person to someone that has never been in my shoes. Thankfully, I read blogs from people that help me to realize that I am certainly not alone or crazy. Frenchie is always very sweet not to make me feel to obsessive about it all. He doesn't do anything like I do, but seems to understand my need. That or he is totally used to it and it's no big deal after all of this time.

I made my first cake,since I have been given another try, that I am pretty proud of. It is just the cutest thing ever. It's pink castle. Totally a little girlie cake. I made it for the girl down the street. It wasn't a hard cake to do, but I did really work hard on making just perfect. I hadn't realized how much I loved that feeling of being so proud of a cake. And I am very proud.

We sent out more docs to be authenticated this weekend. Still no 171, but at least we are almost able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The next batch that comes out of China will be very important. It indicates for at least a little bit if the process is going to start to get back on track or slow down even more. Even though we are not even LID yet, I have already become addicted to the rumor boards. You can't really hold too much stock in it all, but I understand why people have to look every day anyway. It's the only place where there is any news at all. Even if it's made up, people need something to help them get by. Agencies only give news when they have it confirmed and then double checked. Really, there is never any news coming from the agencies. CCAA just did a visit to all the major agencies in the US. It's hard because there was really no more information that came out of that than we had before. It's a desperation for information that we all need.